Honestly

Honestly, I've been struggling lately. I believe in God, and that has not changed. But I have. I've become stagnant. I've been in the same spot spiritually for quite a while. And, though, I'd like to blame this or that, it really is all my fault. 

I shy away from "quiet time" and sometimes even prayer all together. It's because I'm scared. I'm scared that God will tell me to do something radical that I don't feel adequate to do. I'm afraid He'll point out something I need to work on, but that I've hung on to way too tight. I'm worried that I'll fail. That I won't be able to do what he's asked. 

I've struggled with this almost my whole life with my human father. I was never good enough. Never did anything right. And I'm scared to be a failure. Again. Still. In my mind at least. But God is so awesome. He knows I mess up. Way more than I care to admit. 

He shared this verse with me. It gave me something I haven't had in a while. It's a promise and I trust that this is one hat is going to be kept. 

2 Corinthians 1:20-22  
For no matter how many promises God has made, they are "Yes" in Christ. And so through him the "Amen" is spoken by us to the glory of God. Now it is God who makes both us and you stand firm in Christ. He anointed us, set his seal of ownership on us, and put his Spirit in our hearts as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come.