It's amazing all the things that can be accomplished once you get past your self. I've always had so many rules for myself; it was impossible to let myself go. To experience things fully and to be free from worry. Well, I'm working on it.
I've always been paranoid about spending too much money or staining a shirt or messing something up. I'm always so eager to say yes to everyone but myself. I've learned to keep my mouth shut and do what needs to be done. But I'm tired. I'm tired of trying not to feel my feelings. Or overworking myself when no one else seems to care. Maybe I care too much. I don't know.
But then it clicked.
To be selfless means to simply get rid of yourself. I've learned that the more I spend, the more God gives. Once I've given every ounce of everything, that's when God really shines. When I can only rely on him to get through the day; that's when the good stuff happens.
I've also learned that being a Christian doesn't always mean saying yes to everything. You can be a Christian and say no. I have to tell myself this quite frequently. I pour myself into work only to realize that I spent every ounce on someone else. I'm completely empty, and there is nothing left for my sweet husband.
God's grace is more than any of us deserve. He doesn't have a set of rules for us to follow; He gave us freedom. He gave us a CHOICE. And today I'm going to strive to lose myself.
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